on the topic of the ideal girl..

another crazy day in the life of our unsuspecting character, Kiwi Vergara..



New friends that I meet find it hard to accept that I haven’t been in a serious relationship for like the rest of my life. So what? I choose to lead my life in a way I desire. I do not have a need for someone at the moment since I feel that leading the single life is leading a life with no cares or responsibilities. All I have to think about is myself. I guess being traumatized in past “relationships” made me think twice about starting a new one. I’m one of those people whose scared of all that commitment yada yada yada.. Yes ladies and gentlemen, I have been in relationships but not really that serious. When I really, really, really like the girl I can really be obsessed but not in a dangerous and psycho kind of way but in a pathetic and miserable kind of way. I’m such a loser to the girl I really like. I completely act like a dork especially when I’m around her. I guess we all are, in front of a person that makes our stomach feel like its full of butterflies and the feeling of having goose bumps over your goose bumps. Oh my God! High school happened all over again. Suddenly I’m that loser geeky boy in glasses.. What made me afraid of committing is that when I fall, I fall real hard. The repercussions of what I feel reflect in everything I do. That means I really like the girl to the point of love, insanity and bloodshed.. (hahaha.. delete the last two terms.. that didn’t sound right.. hehehehe..). It would really take me a ages to recover, literally.

What is the ideal girl to me? “The one” that would have my heart.. For starters She should be pretty ( who wants a person that is.. hmm.. “sablay” anyway? All of us differ in standards..) And smart. A woman. No psycho bitches please? Most guys go for the “beauty and brains” kind of girls. I’d rather go for smart people since even intelligent people get fooled and played around. They are the people who are cool, calm and calculating. I want a girl with appeal in order to attract my attention. Intimidating to a point but just enough for me to kick into high gear for me to do my moves. I want a challenge.. She should be one. My love interest at the same time my foe. She is my adversary and the person I’m destined to be with. My equal.. She knows my every move as do I with her which would result into a stalemate and then maybe we could call it quits, but then again the one who gives in looses.. She’s ready to bail out on me whenever I get too relaxed and cocky. She’s very flexible since I have a broad range of friends from different walks of life. Although she's kikay, she’s not afraid to get ready for a date in a matter of ten minutes. She’s in for the ride for every trip. And she loves tripping on me.. because she knows that it’s not the matter of reaching the end but how the journey was made and the stories that follow after every experience. love may not make the world gor round but it makes the trip worthwhile. I want her to be trusting, trusting me enough for her to permit me to have my life of my own since I also have friends and I would not want for us to be on our own island alone.. With her understanding comes love, without understanding all the love in the world will be for naught. She knows that I will always be a guy and a guy needs to do what a guy needs to do. A girl that would sweep me off my feet, as do I with hers. My hero, “the damsel” that would save this dude in distress even if it means saving me from myself because I too can fall and need a little catching of my own (floor=hard). She is also a lady but she’s not afraid to get in touch with her masculine side since I’m the kind of person who is never afraid to get in touch with my feminine side. She is my special someone and also my mistress in order to keep this dog at bay. So, if ever, I’m going to cheat on her, I’d cheat on her with her. I don’t know how she’ll do it but she can and will. She keeps me on my feet being very unpredictable doing irrational things but within this irrationality lies a rational reason. Aside from being that special someone to me she is also a friend. She teaches me things I’ve never known about and make me do things I thought I could never do. She balances me out while I’m battling my own demons. Strong in faith is she, and fears God as well.. Our relationship should be dynamic and ever changing since we don’t want to fall into the trap of doing the same routine over and over again resulting into a potential “grown out of love” syndrome. She is a person that would never give up on me when the world already did.. Strong-willed and never willing to give up, she sticks it out with me through thick or thin. Through my eyes she sees that this warrior is also a child, An individual that needs care and nurturing. Most of all, she loves me for what I am. She has no pretensions and accepts me for me.. because she is a better person than I am that makes me want to be a better person around her. She is the one person I’m ever going to love for the rest of my life. After a long time in the relationship we are still unbeleivably in love.. She believes that our love will conquer all.. that being in love with each other makes our lives even more beautiful.